i love wasting my time
i love wasting my time
now that i have taken a deep breath: hello. is tom. and I’ve made the conscious decision to close the site temporarily. Look, it didn’t have that much content to begin with. The most it offered were links to my music and some other stuff that I don’t even remember. I know, this is all a massive mess, but this is essential for my site redesign plans.
I didn’t quite mention this, but that old design was meant to be inspired by early 2000’s web portals… which, in terms of content especially, my site was not. I think that’s why I decided to go for a more minimalist approach for this new one.
Which takes me to why that’s the title: the reason I took like one month to do this is because I procrastinate a lot. School too, but mostly that. I’ve tried some ways to not have a terrible attention span, but they were so minor that they wound up being insignificant. It kind of makes me sad.
It’s hard being positive when you’re an angst-y man-child. I’ll leave this off with a few cool things to make up for sort of complaining about being dumb:
- A friend of mine is drawing me a reference sheet for Antonio Magnolia in exchange for a full-body of one of her characters! (i didnt forget about the artfight attacks i am maybe a bit nervous but i am still doing them dont worryyyyyyyy :’]) I’m really looking forward to that because she is an awesome artist and character designer, and I’m excited to see how she’ll do my boy!
- I went to a local indie record shop the other day. They had like a bunch of classic rock memorabilia and old records. The store is run by a prankster middle-aged balding dad, appealing directly to other middle-aged balding dads. It was really cool. Since I don’t get to visit many independent record stores (Connecticut is a barren wasteland), I was pleasantly surprised by the white label IDM records on the shelves and a section dedicated to indie record labels. I swear I almost had an autistic explosion the moment I was holding an Awesome Tapes from Africa 12-inch.
Oddly enough, I didn’t find a Warp record. Of course I immediately went looking for my favorite labels. The lady running the store that day said they didn’t quite have a cataloging system, so she couldn’t know. I did not find a single Aphex Twin record in the store. No Oneohtrix Point Never, Boards of Canada or Danny Brown either.
A bit bummed out, but I did buy some cool things. I want to direct your attention to this EP I bought from the cover art alone: Patriote by Mamaki Boyz. It’s a pretty good 6-song project, basically a mix of hip-hop and traditional West-African music as described by the Bandcamp page. Very energetic and enjoyable, I recommend it.
Ack, sorry I talked too much. I have no idea what else to talk about. This post is long enough. Here’s a screenshot of the site so far:
ok bye i think
Before you ask, I am posting this at 2:00am during a school night because I slept all day. My sleep schedule is pretty bad, to say the least.
So! I haven’t been able to use my computer for creative endeavors as of late, not sure why. i am writing this and coding a new version of otter.men just to get my creative juices back on. I do have plenty of guesses as to why I feel like this tho:
I’ve STILL been trying to recover from general burnout due to a month straight of exhausting online summer classes that i had to take due to reasons completely out of my control. It was like a whole year of school packed into one or two months. These summer classes REALLY threw me off, it took me like at least a month to get back into the American Public School groove. at least I am a senior now, it was worth shaving another frustrating year of high school.
2. wasting too much time and bad attention span
sometimes i just don’t do anything at all that day. like, i just end up browsing rateyourmusic for hours then finish off the day on some stupid youtube videos. borderline neet behavior that i should not be exhibiting as someone who has been touted as a better-than-average student, but do anyways because… aspergers, i guess. it’s so hard for me to describe why i do the things i do, i just do things beyond human comprehension because i feel like it.
i’m not human perhaps…? [otter emoji] (meh just kidding//)
My awful time management skills have resulted in me doing things like, for a recent example, going to sleep at 4am on a school night because I end up procrastinating for the whole day instead of making up assignments i wasn’t able to counger up the motivation to finish until the late hours of that night. I don’t know how but I managed to run on two hours of sleep that whole day.
this is a stupid blog post so far. i am typing this out and i see how stupid it is as this post slowly shapes itself with the keyboard tipper-tapping i’ve been doing with my fingers.
apparently school bankrupts creativity, according to some bloke online (i know that this is not what the word ‘bloke’ is used for, but i like using the term ‘some bloke’ for ‘a random person’ or whatever i’m going for here). i do not remember where or when i saw this (probably sometime during the year 2020 on twitter), nor do i know whether said ‘bloke’ is living a good life right now, free from academic obligations, or dead in a ditch somewhere in new york city, or detroit, or seattle (probably seattle).
i think people do genuinely struggle with the education system in america, that’s not exactly the case for me. just do your assignments and be there and you’ll be okay-ish as far as i know. maybe i just go to a really good school and thus my view of this stuff may be a bit one-sided in this case, idk exactly.
i think that’s enough rambling. i am kinda tired now. and hungry. i should go eat and then sleep for like 4 more hours.
the new website design looks cool so far, i’m trying to make it compatible with internet explorer, using floats ‘n shit for the layout (i am not a fan of ‘table’ layouts…) kinda like the old veekun site (not really but i was surprised about how developers worked with layouts before things like flexbox and grid). don’t get too hyped tho (why would you be in the first place) i think it’ll be a much simpler thing than what i’ve got rn
ok i am a bit more tired now cya later